Habits

Going to the gym and eating better have slowly become habits. When I first started earlier this month it took every ounce of strenght I had to get myself to the gym. I no longer question it; I plan for it. Eating has definitely been more challenging.  What's helped a lot is just keeping the bad food out of the house. If I don't have the temptation then I can't indulge.

My family is going along for the ride as well. It's a great thing!! Everyone is eating more vegetables and no sugary treats! I'm 2 pounds shy of my first 'short term goal' and that gives me the motivation I need to keep fighting for this. Hoping that by next week I will officially be at 260!

Up & Down

These past two weeks have been full of ups and downs. I've had set backs. Days when I've given up and given into my old habits. Days when I don't go to the gym... but I've managed to stick to it! So far despite the bumps down the road I've managed to lose 5 pounds. And that motivates me!

When I first started "working out"  (although I can't really call it that! Going twice a week for about 40 minutes isn't much.) I would reach my heart rate as soon as I got on the machines. The elliptical, which  is the one I use the most, would wear me out within the first 5 minutes. I couldn't go any faster than 3.2 miles! Now a few months down I HAVE to run my butt off at 6.0+  mph to reach my heart rate. It makes me feel wonderful!

I cannot wait to weigh myself again in a few weeks. When I reach 260 I've decided to treat myself to a new hair color!! Very exciting! (To me anyway lol)

I wish I was thinner!

"I wish I was thinner!"  "I wish I could fit into size 7 jeans!"  "I wish I could be attractive like celebrities!"

These , among others, are things that ran through my mind as I gained weight this past year. Celebrities are constantly being pictured coming out of the gym. It's when I realized they work their butts off to look the way they do. I'm sure some of them get a little help here and there (and to be honest I would too if I could afford it!) but for the most part they work to keep their bodies looking good.

I still want these things and I haven't stopped thinking about them; but instead of sitting around wishing to be fit I've actually started working for it.  When was the last time anyone lost any weight sitting around and eating like a fatty? 

I saw this quote the other day and it's one of the quotes I think about whenever I feel like giving up:

"You don't always get what you wish for. You get what you work for."

And it's true. I gained this weight all by myself by making these bad choices; I have to work to get rid of them.